For a while, I felt I couldn't write anything profound. Perhaps it was because my life lacked turbulence and upheaval. Yet lately, I find myself in moments of challenge and being challenged, and I want to record this.
What appears on the surface differs greatly from what I actually feel. I wanted to ask, so what? But reality keeps pressing me to answer: "Why do you remain here?"
Is it the world's expectations, or my own stubbornness?
Stubbornness?
In truth, every life experience holds meaning—whether it seems ordinary and unremarkable, whether it's fraught with setbacks, or whether it contains much of your happiness. Each has a profound impact on your life. Perhaps you're unwilling to admit it, perhaps you're unwilling to face it, perhaps you only want to remember what you choose to remember. Yet ultimately, the most profound moments are the ones that stay with you most, and the ones you wish to forget become the fragments in your life that you can never stop yearning for.
Once you've tasted freedom, you'll understand from within that you must work harder, ever harder, to be worthy of it.
Once you've tasted freedom, you'll discover how shabby your past life was, how muddled, how constrained without your knowing it.
Once you've tasted freedom, what you must do is pay the price for earning it, whether that be money or ideals. One day, some part of you must bury these with your own hands to welcome the next chapter of your life's inscription.
Others will never understand how much hardship you've endured to arrive at this moment. Without past changes, without past stagnation, how could you have become better?
Others will never understand that your current state exists to strengthen yourself and meet greater challenges ahead.
Of course, you hope this is more than wishful thinking. Yet if you never stop, you must run farther, using your endurance to wrestle with the world.
Perhaps drifting is a necessity of life. In the midst of drifting and uncertainty, you must gain something—understanding that your changes are not a surrender to reality, but a way to honor your still-warm heart.
